just a little sad...

I feel like the days just go by and all I do is get my to do list worked on....am I missing out on something? It sure feels like it.  There has got to be more than this!!

What to do?

Homeschooling wrap up...

I can't believe its May already...

We almost have our school year done or should I say 2 grades done.  Lizzie busted butt to get through 4th and 5th grade this year.  And I am very proud of her!!!  It hasn't been easy but we have managed. 

So we are charging into 6th grade.  I will be buying her books here in a couple weeks and I have been planning out some of it already.  We need to set our goals for next year but I hope to have a great summer.  I am so use to doing school now what will I do with all my time???

Christmas Time

As Christmas is fast approaching I have struggled with getting everything done....and why?  Does it really matter if I have all the cookie and candy choices each and every year.  If it is not fun is it worth it???  This is not what this season is all about. 

This year Lizzie and myself have been doing an Advent calender.  I love the time we spend doing it and realize how much I still have to learn about the Bible but it has put some things in perspective.  I hope to use this Christmas season as a jumping point of my learning and challenge myself to keep learning and growing in Christ.  It really isn't about the cookies or presents...

Fall....

Its been a long long time....  So much has changed. 

Jeff and I are doing great, not much really changes after saying "I do".  Its just now official!!!

We decided to homeschool Lizzie again.  Most of the time that goes pretty well, there are just times that I get very stressed about getting everything done.  She is doing awesome in her schooling and really wants to get through 4th and 5th grade levels this year so she can be back where she was to be before I put her in public school the first time. 

We closed up the camp site last weekend.  It seemed like a long season and I am ready for a break.  But I still look forward to next season all at the same time. 

My stitching retreat is right around the corner and I really need this upcoming time away for things.  Just time to sit with the girls, chat, and stitch.  

I think that brings everything up to date for now.  I really want to get better about blogging.....

Married.....

I can't believe I haven't posted on here.... 

My wedding was so amazing!!!  I loved every part of it.  If something went wrong I didn't even know about it.  I felt beautiful!!!  And the day was perfect.  If you are reading this and want to see pictures of our day check out our website.... jjosborn.shutterfly.com

Life after the wedding...  Everyone seems to ask so is anything different?  No not at all...  Jeff is the same man I fell in love with...we still have our disagreements and we still make up.  But that is one of the big things I love about him.  He sticks through it....  Is everything perfect?  Heck no....but we make the best of everything.

SCARED!!!!

okay ...I know this will sound stupids but I have had a rough day and it is about becoming a stepmom. We just told the boys today about the upcoming wedding because we didn't want them to have to hear Jeff's ex talk a bunch of shit to them or send them to us with mohawks and blue hair. We have them for our 6 weeks and she gets them the everyother weekend thing.




Anyway the boys were cool with it just had questions about the wedding. But one of our neighbors told me I needed to talk to each of the boys letting them know nothing was really changing...just that now I would be married to daddy and be thier step mom...but they could call me Janet, step mom, whatever they wanted just nothing mean.... So I spoke with the youngest (7 yrs old) first and he pops up and says that mommy says Lizzie is a terrible kid, that Janet is irresponsible and that she just hates Jeff. I am heart broken.....



We never talk bad about her in front of the kids....and I would so love to some times. But I know that I have to be the better person. She has told these boys her and dadddy are not together because of me and I didn't even know him when they split up. He was already living on his own when I met him. But it is never going to matter is it??? She is always going to talk bad about me and there is nothing I can do.



It has really hit me hard tonight...I don't take well to people not liking me and to attack my daughter that she knows nothing about are you kidding me. I can say something to Jeff but he really won't say anything because he keeps the peace with her even when she crosses the line. I just don't know what to do. I don't want it to upset me but it does.



So to sum this up I am starting to get scared of being a Step Mom I never really thought much about it until today....

Beautiful....

“The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart.” -Helen Keller

Gratitude. Kindness. Joy. Vulnerability. Passion. Hope. Inspiration. Motivation. Loyalty. Awe. Authenticity. Selflessness. Thoughtfulness. Patience. Understanding. Trust. Simplicity. Serenity. Relaxation. Purpose. Peace. Generosity. Honesty. Integrity. Balance. Bravery. Love.
Look around. It’s a beautiful day, and because of all the good you do and create, you’re a beautiful part of it.