I want him out of our lives.... ( Novermber 9, 2008 )

I think it is time to say goodbye to him..... I don't even think he deserves that so NO I am not calling him. It is just done!!!
Lizzie at this time doesn't want anything to do with her dad because she says "she is scared of him and he doesn't love her anyway." How sad is that to hear from an 8 year old little girl?? She started calling him Steve and not dad a few weeks ago. She tells me she still loves him but he is not there for her.
I know this will be a shocker to anyone that knows him but he says.....if she wants a relationship with him she needs to contact him. How this man still amazes me!!!
I have stuggled with this for so long. Has he ever been good for her? But I felt I still needed to give him the chance to be her dad. I never wanted support money from him I just wanted him to WANT to be her dad. But for years he would sneak down to see her for a hour at a time. I would always take pictures because I never knew if it would be the last time she would get to play with her dad. So I do have those memories for her. But now, I think that time has finally come. I just pray with all my heart that my beautiful little girl doesn't look to me one day and blame me when I gave him 8 years of chances to be a dad. I can't believe he has walked away from daughter number 2.
So to my friends and family please keep Lizzie and me in your thoughts and prayers as we go through this hard time. Because I know there are going to be rough times but I know we will make it. WE ARE STRONG GIRLS!!!

Redi-med visit again..... ( August 22, 2008 )

Well, Lizzie had to be taken to Redi-med again. This time she has messed up her pinkie finger on her right hand. (And yes that is the hand she writes with.)
Doc says it will take 4-7 days for the swelling to go down and the big ugly purple bruise will be there even longer. She had a bike wreck and flipped herself off the bike. Injurying her pinkie and scraping up her elbow. But then the next day in school she runs over the same pinkie in gym class. So we had to get it checked out it looked nasty.
I swear it was just 1-2 months ago I had her there for hurting herself at gymansitc. She had to have her wrist x-rayed that time. I sure hope we get out of this stage soon. Good thing I am laid-off for a week to baby her and spend time with her.

Lizzie’s First Day of School ( August 13, 2008 )

Well I am happy to report that she loved it. But as the night went on at bedtime she said she hated it.
So which is it??? I am guessing she loved it but also wants to be home with everyone.

Public School..... ( July 31, 2008 )

Well some of you know that I have decided to place Lizzie in public school. This has been a hard decision for me but I think it is best.
Today we enrolled her in Horace Mann, she will be in 1st grade and that has been a blow for both of us to take. I truly think she is a very bright girl but because of her reading they want her in 1st grade. They are going to retest her once she has been in school for a while.
Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as this is a hard time for us. I am going to miss my baby so much as I will only get to see her in the mornings Monday through Friday. She is already sad about not seeing mommy. In the end I believe she will enjoy school very much we just have to get through the first couple of weeks.

Wetzelland ( July 29, 2008 )

Oh my gosh.....I had such a great time. We had an amazing weekend. Mostly just hanging out with friends and making new ones. I uploaded some new pictures of my weekend. I can't wait for next year

He loves me.... ( June 2, 2008 )

I am over the moon with happiness!!!!!!!!!!!
As many of my friends know I have been dating Jeff since Feb. Things have been going along pretty smoothly. We were sitting on the front porch and he asked me about us then says he loves me.
I never know the first time of him saying this to me would be so powerful. I have felt that way about him for a little while now but didn't want to freak him out and go to fast so I just kept it to myself.
I have been told "I love you" before but man does this one feel different. I don't know how to explain it but it is different. I just wanted to share my happiness with everyone.
Love ya all.

Celebrating.... ( May 21, 2008 )

I am one year out from my surgery.
The time has flown by just like they told me it would. First I want to give my statisics. I have lost 175 lbs. Now for my measurements (hold on this is crazy)
April 2007 May 2008 Lost
Chest 57 in 38 in 19 in
Waist 55 in 30 in 25 in
Hips 65 in 41 in 24 in
Thigh 31 in 21 in 10 in
Calf 18 in 14 in 4 in
Bicep 16.5 in 11.5 in 5 in
It is truly hard for me to believe the changes I have gone through. Some of it has been hard on my family and friends but in the end I feel like such a better person. I have grown stronger as a person and I love the changes I have made (yes, there are still more to come as I get comfortable in my own skin).
I want everyone to know how much I love them; I needed and still need your support on this journey on mine.

I am going to be on TV.... ( May 10, 2008 )

for Lutheran Hospital about my surgery.
They saw my post op pictures. (Yes, I know I need to get them posted.) Anyway, they asked me to come to a photo shoot. It was so cool I saw one of the pictures and was like wow that is pretty. I can't wait to see how it all turns out.
I will let everyone know when I find out what is going on with it.
Love ya.

College Finals!!! ( May 5, 2008 )

Okay I survived FINALS....
I ended up getting an A in both my classes this semester. I was very stressed but enjoyed being in classes again. I will have to wait and see what the fall brings as it took alot away from working on Lizzie's homeschool. If I would just get brave enough I would take an online course.
Thanks to everyone for all your support this semester

Confused???? ( March 4, 2008 )

Okay here we go....
My current guy is acting like a jerk. Seems to want to all the sudden take a step back and see. Well, now a "friend" that I had been talking to before Cancun has reappeared and wants to talk again. What to do????
I want to see here this will go but I am not good at this dating thing as you all know. So advice is what I need!!!!
I can do the pros/cons for each guy but..... Does that really work on how I feel about them? This dating stuff sucks I tell you. Can't I just find one guy that is good to me?

BAD DAY ( March 3, 2008 )

Okay this day really sucks. My daughter is sick, she just wants her mommy but I have to be at work. My man is not picking up the phone and talking to me, so its pissing me off and worrying me at the same time.
I don't want to be at work and I just want to cry. I am getting nothing done that I should be because I am so distracted. I don't usually have days like this so no one knows how to act around me. I am a stick in the mud and I just want to go home get my baby, crawl in bed and cry. I think my friend are even sick of hearing from me today.
Am I ever a downer today.....

Keeping everyone happy.... ( March 1, 2008 )

How do I do that? I keep hearing how much I have changed but have I really? I mean yes I look a lot different but other than that.... I am just busy all the time.

I mean I work full time, homeschool Lizzie, back in college, and joined the gym. And yes I have a new boyfriend but..... I still try to make time for my family and friends. I know things will settle down and I will figure it all out but I really haven't changed and I wish people would understand that.

I love being back in school, going to the gym, and having a guy around that really cares about me. And yes that is all about me and I usually put everyone else first but can't I be first for a while. Its not like I am really going anywhere, I am still here I just need time to adjust.

I joined the gym..... ( February 20,2008 )

And I am feeling the pain. Okay I had been doing some stuff at home but my friend, Beth and I joined a gym here in Huntington. I am working on my cardio but I have been doing that for a while now so no big deal. That is all they want us doing for right now but no Janet wanted to work on abs......
So we were given what they want to see us do and all I can say is ouch....
Last night it hurt but we went again today and I am dying right now it hurts but like they always say in a good way. It really amazes me how much my life has changed in the last 9 months. I am continuing to enjoy this ride I am on.

Falling for my guy.... ( Febuary 19, 2008 )

Okay most of you know I have returned to dating.
Well I have found myself a great guy and he treats me wonderful.
For those of you that don't know his name is Jeff and he lives down in Bluffton. I am sure you will be hearing lots about him in the near future but until then just be happy for me. I am not rushing into this but it feels very right.

92%......... ( Febuary 11, 2008 )

I had my first psychology test today. I was so nervous about taking it. But as you can see I scored a A. Maybe I can handle this college thing...
Of course I studied my butt off this weekend. Well I did have time to go out on a date also. And had a great time.

First Date...( Febuary 9, 2008 )

Well after chatting a bit on Cupid.com I had my first date with Jeff tonight. We met up at Applebee's but no power so we ended up going to Wings Etc. I had a great time, conversation flowed. We did stop back at Applebee's for a few drinks before deciding it was cheaper to just go back to my place and chat.

I am happy that he seems normal. Only draw back is he smokes....that is usually a deal breaker for me but I got to know him a bit before finding out he hadn't quit smoking yet. We will see how that goes???

This time it felt better getting out on a date...maybe I am ready for this dating thing.

SIZE 14........... ( January 23, 2008 )

I do not know when it was the last time I wore size 14 jeans. It had to be the early days in high school or before.
But today I put on size 14's and holy cow I am so excited. I leave for Cancun in like 3 days and I am actually excited about putting on a swimsuit. How crazy is that?
As of last week I weight in at 196 lbs and I have been losing about 2 lbs a week. I look in the mirror and I can't believe its me most of the time. Then there are other times I look at myself and am like wow I look good.
I get asked all the time when are you going to stop losing. I don't know it will just stop at some point. I know I don't want to look sick and I like my figure that I have so I don't want to become a stick either. But honestly I don't know where it will stop. I use to say if I could wear a size 12 I would be happy. Well I am getting really close to that. So we will see........

Dating again.... ( January 12, 2008 )

I forgot how bad it hurts when you get disappointed....

I thought I was ready to start getting out in the game again. But this really sucks getting hurt like this.

So am a even ready to start dating again.......

Ice Skating ( January 11, 2008 )

Yesterday was amazing. I have not been on ice skating since I was a little girl.

Well, Lizzie really wanted to go ice skating and her grandpa promised her that he would take her. It just so happened I was able to go also. I am so happy she pushed reminding him he needed to take her.

I had so much fun. I didn't fall once, but I am sore from all the almost falls. Of course I didn't get the far from the wall but that is okay. I think we are going back next week. I will post pics as soon as I get them.

***BREAKING NEWS*** ( January 10, 2008 )

I finally did it.

I am under the 200 mark.

I know I could have never done it without my surgery. I never thought in my adult life to be below 200 again.

I want to thank everyone for their support during this time. I have changed so much physically and mentally I just can't believe this is happening to me.

I love you all.


****My pic is from Christmas time.....I just wanted to share****

Sledding Time.... ( December 19, 2007 )

I feel like a kid again....

Lets see yesterday Lizzie and I went sledding down the big hill at the park. WOW that was so much fun.

Then today, it got even better. We went to Beth's and played with the quad. That was awesome. I have pictures I will post later. I laughed so hard my abs are killing me.....

Autumn ( November 14, 2007 )

I can't believe how fast this month is already going. I feel like time is just flying by and I am not getting a chance to enjoy my favorite time of the year.
I love this time of the year. Watching the leaves change colors and the coolness in the air. It is so beautiful. Then to top it off my favorite holiday is Thanksgiving. To spend the day with the people I love and am most thankful for.
This year my dad, Lizzie, and me are walking in the "Turkey Trot". We will be doing 1 mile, the family fun mile. I really wanted to walk another 5K but Lizzie wants to do this with mommy so I figured it was better show her healthy things to do instead of being selfish.
After that we are going to the church to help get it set up for the free meal they serve on Thanksgiving. I am even making pumpkin pies and cranberry salad for the church.
Finally, we will have our family dinner at my parents. It will be a busy day but I think it is important to teach Lizzie that giving to the community is very important. And the funny thing is she is already picking up that message. She asked for something for Christmas just so she could make things for kids that don't have things.
Okay I am done rambling for now.....

Celtic Women ( November 8, 2007 )

Holy Cow!!! That show was unbelievable. Those women have such beautiful voices. I am so glad that I took Lizzie to go see this concert. It was very enpowering for her to see. The music moved me and was so touching.
They told us that they will be airing their show from Thanksgiving thur Christmas on PBS. So if you get a chance check it out.

Normal "Size" Clothes ( November 2, 2007 )

My sister need to get some new jeans and asked me to go with her. So while we were there I was checking out the "plus size" clearance section for "Cancun" clothes. I picked up 2 tanks and a sundress. I went home and tried on the shirt well they fit now. (So they will be a little big when I go on vacation.) Then I decided to try on the size "16" sundress. To my surprise it went on and zipped up all but 1 inch. My little girl was so awesome. She says "Mom you look so pretty."
I got to thinking..... They told me their jeans went up to 17/18 on the normal size side of the store. So I wonder if they would fit me.
I drag my sister back up there. She tells me I have to try on a complete outfit. So we grab jean 17/18 and an XL shirt.
THEY FIT!!!!!!!!
I told the lady to take to tags off I am wearing it out of the store.
I do not remember buying clothes on the normal side of the store in my adult life. It feels so wonderful to no that I don't have to shop at plus size stores anymore. The freedom that I feel is amazing. I cried on the way to work, I was so happy. And you should have seen Lizzie running around the store so was so happy for me. The thought of shopping with my daughter and enjoying it is very overwelming for me. I can't really express the feelings right now. I am just so full of joy.

Starting College Again..... ( November 1, 2007 )

There are so many changes happening to me and this is just another one.
I made the decision that I wanted to go back to college. So I applied for IVY Tech last Wednesday and was accepted on Thursday.
So today I went to campus and enrolled in my spring classes.
I am really excited about doing this. So yes its one more thing to add to my plate but as most of you know I want to be prepared with a back up career just in case.....

Something awesome happened today... ( October 16, 2007 )

Okay often I don't give myself credit for losing the weight I have lost. Just as an update I am now down 120lb. I am very happy with my lose but I usually undercut myself by saying I have only lost the weight because of my surgery.

Well, I am in Detroit this week and my instructor for my class kind of called me out for making these changes and losing the weight. I responded by stating that "Well I had the surgery and it has allowed me to lose the weight." He jumped right back in and said you deserve to take credit for it, you have worked hard to get where you are at. He went on to say that he knows others that have not lost weight because they cheated or they gained the weight back because they didn't make changes.

This was like a eye opener for me. I do deserve to take credit for my weight loss. He is exactly right. It is funny how some people come into your life for just a short time but can make such a change in your views.

I DID IT!!!!!! ( September 29, 2007 )

I completed my first 5k walk today!!!

Annette and I went to Indy to walk in the WALK from OBESITY.

We finished in an hour and were in the top 1/3 that finished.

We met up with a group from the web that I chat with many of
you have heard me talk about the website www.wlsindy.com
there were about 35 members of our team.

Check out the pictures that I posted.

This is crazy.... ( September 27, 2007 )

Today, I had to stop by to get more vitamins from the clinic where I had my surgery. As I was walking in the nurses were like giving me all kinds of compliments. Then asked me if I would speak to an information group about my surgery and how I have been doing. I was taken back. But I did it!!!!
I stood up there and told my story. The funny thing was I was okay with it. I am not at were I want to be yet but I feel so much better about myself. I know I am in front of classes at work all the time but this was different. What I just said may make a big difference in someones life.
It felt good to give back a little hope to someone from everything I have gained from this experince so far.

We have a Tentative!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( September 26, 2007 )

That was the phone call I got at 5:40 am this morning.

I am to return to work today. That is a big sigh of relief.

Now I just have to wait and see whats what in the agreement. Sometimes we don't know for a while the little details of the agreement.

But at least I don't have to close my house down and move back in with my parents. As I told many I could save my house on strike pay but not run it.

Can you tell I am glad this is over...........Wait we still have a local agreement to get through......

UAW ON STRIKE ( September 24, 2007 )

Well most of your know that I am out on strike. I completely believe in my union and support it but I hope this is a quick one.

I will keep you posted on how we are doing but I am putting in a lot of hours at the hall.

Strike???? ( September 15, 2007 )

Well it has been a wild weekend. We are on an hour to hour extension with our contract and a strike could still happen.

It scares the hell out of me but I am ready to walk the picket line if I need to. All I can do is roll with the punches and see how things end up.

Gone Forever........ ( September 6, 2007 )

I am so happy to report my total per-op and post-op weight loss has now reached 102 lbs.

I just really suck at letting myself celebrate these great things.

I now weigh less than my dad. And this weekend we flew in my dad's little plane to TN,
I was able to buckle my seat belt without an extension belt.

I am wearing size 20 pants. I think the last time I wore this size I was like 20 years old.
That was just a few years ago. hahahaha

Down 90 lbs..... ( August 21, 2007 )

It is hard to believe that I am down this much already. My knees don't hurt when I take the stairs now and I have a little pep in my step when I walk. I feel great about the weight now I just need to get my head straightened out.

ADHD Testing ( August 19, 2007 )

For those of you that don't know Lizzie's testing came back and the doctor reported that she is NOT ADHD. He said she is a little problem with self-esteem and confidence so we will be working on that. But her IQ test came back with a score of 103 that is just above average. And her personality test says she is artistic, independent, and imaginative. No surprise there.

I just wanted to let those that didn't find out yet about it.

Walk From Obesity ( August 5, 2007 )

I have decided to do my first 5K walk. I am so excited about this. To get ready for it I have been walking on both my breaks at work 1 mile loops on each break. I feel stronger everyday and this is a big thing for me.

The walk is in Indy on Sept 29th. They want us to try and get $100 in sponsors so I have been working on that. But to me just having my family and friends support me is more important. I will keep everyone up-to-date on how it is going.

Continued Weight Loss ( August 2, 2007 )

Everything is still going great in this department. I am losing about 2-5 lbs per week and that is a healthy loss for me. I am now 80 lbs down and 3 pant sizes. I am going to have to start hitting the Goodwill Stores soon as I will need clothes soon or just look like a slob. HAHAHA

I am feeling great and it amazes me some of the changes that are happening that I didn't even know would happen. I know it was 7.5 years ago I was this size but I forgot what it was like to look this way. My knees don't hurt going up stairs any more, I sit up straighter, I hold my head up high. I am seeing my self-esteem return to where it use to be. To feel proud of myself again is a huge thing.

Lizzie’s Testing ( August 1, 2007 )

Everything went very well. I am so excited about it. I know I have to wait for the results but the doc told me that she was able to stay on task and complete everything. So I will not no anything until Aug 15th so I will wait and see.

I have made the decision to have Lizzie go through a testing with a company in Fort Wayne to find out where she is and what we need to work on for school. Besides they also report on a child's learning style and personality type so I think this will be a big step for us in her homeschooling.

I'm wearing my Levi's!!!!! ( July 18, 2007 )

Okay, I have not worn these jeans since before I got pregnant. This is a major thing for me. I loved these jeans and this is the biggest size of jeans Levi makes.

So I have been dancing around all morning with excitement. I really need to post some new pictures I am looking so different now a days.

7 years ago....... ( July 12, 2007 )

I was wearing the jeans I put on this morning. I can hardly believe it and how it feels. I am so excited I just start crying at times with happiness. I want to shout it out for everyone to hear this is working for me. I finally can feel like I am doing the right thing

Low Potassium ( July 11, 2007 )

I got a call about my latest blood work and they said my potassium is dangerously low. So I have to start taking potassium pills 2x a day for 5 days then 1 per day for 20 days. I know things will be fine but I am a little scared about it. They told me that it can affect my heart.

Besides all this I am not getting my water in this week. They have me doing a different job at work and it is throwing everything off for me. I am very tired and don't feel up to myself these last couple days.

I feel like I am completely out of my element right now and I know it will pass.

I am down my first size!!! ( June 25, 2007 )

Today being my first day back to work I decided to try on my smaller size clothes.

They FIT!!!!!!!

I am so excited and feel so good about myself. I can feel it when I walk I am walking with my head held high. It is such a great feeling to have again.

I am down my first size!!! ( June 25, 2007 )

Today being my first day back to work I decided to try on my smaller size clothes.

They FIT!!!!!!!

I am so excited and feel so good about myself. I can feel it when I walk I am walking with my head held high. It is such a great feeling to have again.

I walked in a PARADE... ( June 23, 2007 )

Heritage Days is going on and the parade is always a part of it. I am so excited that I walked in it with my daughter for Girl Scouts. It was probably about 1.5 miles. But I did it. I walked in front of all those people and held the banner with pride.

These are the kinds of memories that I look forward to as I continue to loss weight. Something I can be proud of that I accomplished.

60 lbs lost ( June 23, 2007 )

It has been a crazy week but the good news for me is that I lost another 6.2 lbs. Making it 20.4 lbs since surgery and a total of 60.4 lbs all together. That is more than Lizzie weighs!!!!

Now this week was Girl Scout Day Camp week and I didn't really eat right and but I did get my water in every day. I was just so tired and it was crazy. I know when I get back to work on MONDAY my normal routine will kick in and things will be fine. I actually kind of look forward to the routine again.

On a BAD note, my mom fell at GS Camp this week and broke her right hip. They did surgery on her yesterday. She came through great and should be just fine. They are saying she will be in the hospital for 5 days then moving her to rehab. I don't know how long she will be in rehab.

I am down 15 lbs........so far ( June 15, 2007 )

Since surgery I am down 15 lbs but overall I am down 55 lbs. I am so excited about the changes I am feeling. My clothes are looser, my face is slimmer, and I have energy.

Things are really looking up for me. But now it is getting close to return to work which will help with the money but I don't want to go back really. I am enjoying my time off. But reality sets in and things have to go back to the way they were work wise.

Awesome day... ( June 4, 2007 )

Today was such a great day. My daughter and I went to the zoo and I was able to walk the whole zoo in like 3 hours. We followed that by have lunch then going to visit family.

I am so excited that I wasn't tired and that we had an awesome time. I am just feeling great and hope for another good day tomorrow.

Another 7 lbs gone.... ( May 31, 2007 )

Today at my weigh in it shows another 7 lbs gone. That is a total of 50 lbs. That is the most I have lost EVER!!!!!

They talked about us using the exercise bands to help prevent some loss skin so I will be starting on that. Other than that walk, walk, walk,.....

Very Tired.... ( May 30, 2007 )

For the last couple of days I have been really tired. I am getting my protien and water in. I am also getting 5 meals(should be 6 meals).

The only thing that chanced is that I started driving yesterday. Could that really take that much energy out of me?

I think I have been doing pretty good on this. I am getting my walks in and up until yesterday I have been feeling awsome. Now I feel like I need naps to make it though.

I know my body is still healing maybe I am just pushing myself to fast.....

We stayed at home... ( May 26, 2007 )

For the first time since I got home from the hospital we actually stayed at home all night. It felt wonderful to be in my own bed. Its funny how small things make such a big difference.

I am doing great. I am still pushing myself a little to hard on the walking. I just walk to fast when other people walk with me. So I need to try and walk by myself.

I am getting my protein in every day now and I am still working on my water intake. I have got to get that up to where it needs to me. Hopefully today I will get better.

First Post-op Meeting ( May 24, 2007 )

3.5 lbs loss in just 4 days......

WOW...I am so happy things are going so great. I have had a little pain last night and ended up staying at mom and dad's, but I feel much better today. Everyday is getting better. I just have to concentrate on my walking, water, and protein. I am getting better each day.

I'm Home.... ( May 23, 2007 )

I just wanted to update everyone. I did just fine in surgery. My hospital stay was uneventful. I am recovering very nicely.

Now I must concentrate on walk, sip, walk, sip. Beyond that I have to remember to eat. I have NO hunger pain so it is a matter of setting a time that I am to eat each meal and sticking with it.

I was tired when I got home today from the hospital. I took a nap, then went out on a walk.

Thats all I have for now.

I think I have everything ready to go. ( May 18, 2007 )

I have packed my bag, cleaned my house, did my yard work, and took my pre-op pictures.

Everyone keeps asking me if I am NERVOUS. No I am not nervous at all. I think that is a good sign that I am confident in what I am doing. So as my best friend says she will be nervous for me.

I am so ready for this change in life I am about to undertake. It will be an amazing adventure and hurdle for me. It is that one thing I have never been able to succeed at and it is right in my grasp. I look forward to everything I am getting ready to go through, even some of the rough stuff I know is coming.

There is so much stuff I will be able to do again and be comfortable about. Lizzie and I have made a list of all the cool things we will be able to do together. I look forward to my first WOW moment when I notice something has changed. My life really is about to change for the better physically and I am ready for the RIDE of my LIFE.

Final Pre-op Appointment ( May 17, 2007 )

Okay this is it last one. Lizzie had to go with me on this one as she has been pretty nervous about this surgery. So she met the Doctor and it helped. Her big questions she wanted to ask ended up being "Can my mommy go to my soccer game?" That is so cute. The doc said it depends on how your mommy feels.

Other than that I had my last blood work done, did my hospital orientation, and last group (Pre-op) meeting.

Oh and I lost another 2.1 lb this week. So that makes me down 38 lbs already. yeah

3rd pre-op appointment DONE ( May 3, 2007 )

WOOHOO.... I lost 8.1 lbs this week. And I passed my test with 100%.

Then I went into group and was totally confused about eating during my pureed stage. But I talked to Abagail today from the center and I think I understand things better.

Big thing I was worried about was cooking. I am not a very big cooker so that freaked me out. I think I know what I have to do now and most of it can be done pre-surgery. That is a big weight off my shoulders. So I will be cooking and freezing things before I goto the hospital.

ONLY 2 WEEKS til surgery

My energy level comes and goes ( May 1, 2007 )

I really thought I was doing better and I do but there are times in the day that my energy is zapped.

I know it will get better I don't mind the shakes/bar diet. I am even lossing some weight. But I always feel thirsty and right now my tongue feels big and has white stuff on it. I am going to about it on Thursday at my appointment or call the office.

Something cool I am doing now is I sit at my computer and type on my stabililty ball it's actually fun and it helps my balance.

Enough for now.

More pre-op DONE ( April 26, 2007 )

Doc appointment, EKG, measurements, picture, dynamoter reading, taste test, and then finally group.

I am fasting for at least 12 hours for blood work in the morning.

Next week I have to take a test over all my surgery stuff to make sure I understand what I am doing.

It is moving very fast and it will be time for my surgery in no time.

I JUST GOT MY APPROVAL…. ( April 25, 2007 )

I can barely believe it. I just got a voicemail at 7:24pm telling me that I have approval for my surgery. I was so excited I screamed, cried, and about peed my pants.

I called everyone I could think of and I am over the top. I still can't stop crying about it I am so excited.

My surgery date is going to be May 21st but I still do not know the time.

More to follow……

The waiting game... ( April 21, 2007 )

I went to my doctors visit on Thursday for my surgery.

Things went GREAT.

They applied for my surgery on Friday and I should know something in the early part of next week.

I a so freakin excited and nervous at the same time. I have my fingers, toes, and anything else crossed that will cross hoping everything comes through.

Rushed to the hospital ( April 10, 2007 )

What a freaking scary night. Lizzie was hurt in gymnastic's class tonight. She fell and hit her chin/head on the balance beam. Resulting in an abrasion to her chin and biting her tongue in two spots. She was taken to Lutheran Hospital to be checked out. The doctor did a neurological test on her for a head injury and said if the bite would have been any deeper she would have needed stitches. We were sent home with meds for possible infection and just to watch her.

We are safely home and settled. Mommy is spoiling her with dinner of jello, pudding, popsicles, and ice cream because she has a swollen tongue.

I think another gray hair popped out tonight.

Keep moving ahead... ( April 4, 2007 )

Things have been going great as I keep heading toward my surgery. I have lost 3.1 more lbs. that is a total of 20 lbs. so far. I have lots of energy. I have been keeping busy cleaning my house getting ready for the surgery. I want everything in order when I go to the hospital.

I get nerves that something will come up and stop it from happening but I try not to focus on that. I have been doing everything they say I need to do. I eat my 1200 cal a day diet, workout 3x per week, get my 64 oz of water in every day, and I am trying to remember to take my vitamin. That is something I have to get better at because after surgery my body will depend on my vitamin supplements.

No April Fools Here ( April 2, 2007 )

At my weigh in today I lost another 3.1 lbs. And I have 4 Mondays left before insurance can be filed on for my surgery.

After that was done we went geocaching with Annette and the kids. It was a good day. We even finished it off with a 1.5 mile hike and found a cache that an not been found in 13 months. So we were motivated. And tired.

All in all I had a great day. I love the feel of spring coming. I have even been doing some spring cleaning. I want my house in shape before my surgery. I am getting there one pile at a time.