I want him out of our lives.... ( Novermber 9, 2008 )

I think it is time to say goodbye to him..... I don't even think he deserves that so NO I am not calling him. It is just done!!!
Lizzie at this time doesn't want anything to do with her dad because she says "she is scared of him and he doesn't love her anyway." How sad is that to hear from an 8 year old little girl?? She started calling him Steve and not dad a few weeks ago. She tells me she still loves him but he is not there for her.
I know this will be a shocker to anyone that knows him but he says.....if she wants a relationship with him she needs to contact him. How this man still amazes me!!!
I have stuggled with this for so long. Has he ever been good for her? But I felt I still needed to give him the chance to be her dad. I never wanted support money from him I just wanted him to WANT to be her dad. But for years he would sneak down to see her for a hour at a time. I would always take pictures because I never knew if it would be the last time she would get to play with her dad. So I do have those memories for her. But now, I think that time has finally come. I just pray with all my heart that my beautiful little girl doesn't look to me one day and blame me when I gave him 8 years of chances to be a dad. I can't believe he has walked away from daughter number 2.
So to my friends and family please keep Lizzie and me in your thoughts and prayers as we go through this hard time. Because I know there are going to be rough times but I know we will make it. WE ARE STRONG GIRLS!!!